Today I was surprised by "catastrophy". A year's worth of my work - including reports, data, technology inventory, lesson plans, activities, projects, assessments, and research was lost. The immediate panic that set in robbed me of the ability to think and put my emotions in high gear. I tried to remain composed for the good of those around me, but was almost paralyzed in trying to fight back. Going through the motions at work, I prayed for sanity. As soon as I was able to be alone went before His throne, "really God, is it possible that I can fall apart this quickly? - forgive me Father for my sheer despair, forgive me for my meltdown, help me to focus on what lasts. Then the pictures started coming - God's precious gift of life: Anna Rae - my new granddaughter. God's first sweet reminder - thank you Father for holding me up with sweet reminders. The next blessing was a sweet lunch with my sister Joanne - Father how you've blessed me. The third sweet reminder came on my drive home - a call from D'Andre, my 8-year-old grandson. "Hi, Oma, I love you." "I love you too Dre, are you calling just to talk?" "No, I heard you had a very bad day today - I just wanted to tell you I love you, you want to tell me what happened?" Father, Father, my heart cried out - how sweet your reminders, my cup runneth over. Lord God, you are so personal - I thank you for loving me so much. These are the moments of grace that are so sweet to me, that strengthen my faith and humble me at the same time. These are the moments when the old hymns of faith rush back into my mind: "Great is thy Faithfulness, O God my Father; there is no shadow of turning with Thee; Thou changest not, thy compassions they fail not; as Thou has been thou forever wilt be..."
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